So I sit here and I think over and over again that it’s my fought that I weigh what I do that I let myself go and I give into the pain I feel over and over. I feel like I am on fire down stairs that my lower stomach hurts so bad that sex can be painful if no in the right zone. Depression really can get you down and out. Well it really did get ahold of me. I set myself up this awesome wall where I have goals, quotes, rewards and weight tracking on my wall. I will not fail this time!!!